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  • chibialfa 8:35 pm on October 29, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: coldplay, , fix you, , viral, workshop,   

    Fix You – A creative writing workshop 


    Me and my big mouth.

    I guess Fajar Jasmin’s idea about this viral creative writing workshop blinded me. I mean, it’s a great viral idea, got me excited and all that. Chose one song from 100 lists he provided that will trigger our creative juice most, and make a blog post based on that title. So after Kapkap tagged me (based on my oh-so-not-very-ladylike request) I chose Fix You by Coldplay.

    [and now I am looking at my blank type editor]



    [still looking]

    As he suggested, probably listening to the song itself will help. While it’s being played in my iPod, I closed my eyes, shut all my rational thoughts from the left side of my brain, and I see… a dark hospital wing, at night. Doctor’s feet walking in slow motion. And myself there, sitting, waiting, alone, closing my face in despair, too tired to sleep, too arrogant to cry…

    Light will guide me home, and ignite my bones… and he will try fix me…

    Wait, he… who is he? Who is the ‘I‘ in “I will try to fix you…”?

    It became clear to me why I always find that song moves me. It reminds me to the lowest points in my life, which allows me to pity myself (I don’t know why it painted hospital pictures in my head) and provides me with some sort of believe that some miracles (in any kind of form) will fix me.

    The song is ambiguous. At first I thought it’s all about me, me, me… my despair, my sadness, my oh my help me help me. But the real message is being tucked gently at the end of the lines. 

    And I will fix you.

    I don’t care who he is. He engaged me by knowing how much I am longing for help. And I love with that song because with its own way, it does fix me.

    And if I want look at that statement from a different angle, I will ask myself a question,

    When was the last time I fix somebody?

    I suppose “fix somebody” here means do anything good without hoping anything in return.

    I… don’t know when. I forgot when was the last time I did something without the thought of me standing in the center of the universe. Because I feel, I want, I need, I, I, I, began with I and ended with… me, and myself.

    I gave money to the poor just to shoo them away, I tipped my maid because I appreciate her work and expecting she would keep on doing the good work, I pat the dogs and cats in the street because I love animals, I (this will sound very ugly) will do free ads for NGO not because I care so much for the world, poverty, and its global warning, but because if it’s cool enough it might win any awards for me, me, and of course… myself.

    I want to be fixed, but I have never fixed anyone.

    No, I am not proud of it, and no I don’t need to be pitied. I know I have to start somewhere, somehow. I am not a doctor like my dad or my brother who is living the life of fixing people, that they often forgot how much they have helped others. I am not my mom who gives all her passion in education and own this ‘fixing other people’ by default.

    I am who I am. I will be 30 years old sometimes next month. I don’t know who or what and how to fix. I just want to be a happier person. Hopefully, this will be a good start toward that direction.

    See? Again… I am the center of my own universe… *face palm*


    [end as a start]


    The deal said, I have to tag 2 people that will take this viral thing to another level. So I tag barijoe, because he appreciate good songs a lot more than I do, and treespotter, because I have never tagged him 🙂 Enjoy the task. And don’t forget to comment on this page to ‘book’ your choice of song.

    • treespotter 9:37 pm on October 29, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      done 🙂

    • treespotter 9:42 pm on October 29, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      and well… i like the song, but cold play depresses me. far too much. I’m trying not to listen too much to them.

      good song tho, i don’t know most songs on Fajar’s list, but i like both your choices.

      and well, i like the award bit – you deserve them anyway :p – might as well do it for cute animals if you’re up for it.

    • Nana 2:08 am on October 30, 2008 Permalink | Reply


      Yeah, we’re selfish creature.
      I recently feel like that too, I was sad when my parents leave Jakarta to another country, but not because I’ll be apart from them, but mostly because I’m jealous that they got to get away first…

      It’s the same like when someone close to you died and you cry, but really why are you crying?
      You’re sad because they’re gone and left you alone, another selfish act don’t you think?
      Well, at least that’s how I see it =)

      Great piece XD

    • Fajar Jasmin 2:54 am on October 30, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      You know what I particularly love about you ? You write so bravely…

      The more I read you, the more I adore you 🙂

  • chibialfa 6:03 pm on October 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , blogger day, , ,   

    Why do you blog? 

    I wished upon him much joy

    I wished upon him much joy


    Good question.

    And to celebrate Blogger Day (27th October), this blog post was made to answer that question.

    If you’re a girl, like me, you must remember the good old days in high school when you and your close girl friends sharing a diary together. Not the kind of diary with lock and “OPEN THIS AND YOU’LL DIE” written all over the front page, but the kind that big enough to fit lots of colorful drawings, interesting clipping from magazines or cute photo box of you and your mates, or long written expression of how you shitty feel on a particular day.

    If you’re a grown up, like myself at this moment, you’d probably sigh and deny the fact that you were one the girls who share that diary together. 

    No matter how hard you’ll deny it, I know one thing for sure. Whenever I finished ‘posting’ something in that diary, I always felt better and had half of the burden lifted up. And whenever I got a ‘reply’ from my mates, or simply a hug, the world became colorful again.

    That would explain why I am still blogging until now.

    When I just moved to Jakarta seven years ago, I use to write long emails to my mom to overcome my homesickness. It did help, a lot. I wrote useless stuff which only matter for me and her, like how delightful it was to be able to go to the top roof of my office building, or how hungry I am and how the thought of her cooking made me miss home terribly.

    After starting my first blog here five years ago, I used it as an ‘open letter’ to her and my closed relatives, including my long distance husband (was my long distance boyfriend). Then I began to make friends online from that blog. I even did a collaboration work with a person I have never met.


    my diary about wedding preparation, 2006

    my diary about wedding preparation, 2006

    I blog about everything. My thoughts, experience, photos, sometimes purely links. I used to reveal a bit of what I was working on, but after reading a written announcement about the law of blogging vs company I was working for, I was becoming very cautious and changed all my work related blog posts into private. Wouldn’t take any chances. Although, I have to add that lots of my blog readers envied my job and admire the company I worked for. So, in a way, I actually helped them with good publicity.

    Having been a blogger for several years, I become more careful of my posts. I know it’s an open public space expression, nevertheless it is open to public. Writing a blog post is becoming more difficult for me, like crafting an ad. Who am I talking to, what am I going to write, will it offend some people, will it be a crappy writing and waste my readers’ time? 


    I still use my note book

    I still use my note book

    Of course, I still blog. But not as often I used to. And as much as I would like to say how blogging set my inner expression free, it’s not. Blogging is a serious stuff. It’s still fun, but it’s not just just write and post and voila. A blog post came from considerable amount of researching, thinking, and creating. What you blog defines who you are in a blogsphere, like a clothes you choose to wear in your real world.

    That’s why I twitter more than blog. Sometimes I got this idea in my mind, just a thought, but not a blog post, so I tweet it. Sometimes I just want to write how I feel about something, but it’s enough in less than 140 characters, won’t be much for a blog post, enough for a tweet. Sometimes my mind is so full of scattered things that wouldn’t make any sense in a blog post, so I just tweet them, will blog them later (or maybe not at all).

    In my humble opinion, blogging will never expire, it simply evolves.

    As a human, my need to express myself, share my thoughts, and tell stories will never die. It will remain the same. That’s why I will keep on blogging.

    Happy Blogger Day!

    • treespotter 6:20 pm on October 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      i like ur doodles…

    • chibialfa 6:31 pm on October 27, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      thanks 🙂 probably will make one related to boobs, one of these days. still dunno what kind, tho…

  • chibialfa 7:03 pm on October 16, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: adfest, adoi, , droga, glamourous, judges, judging, khai, one show, pattaya, , yasmin ahmad   

    It’s tough being judges 

    When my boss was given a task to judge a local award show from another country, he invited another creative directors and group heads (including the freelance one, how generous of him) to join him in the judging session. He thought more fresh eyes would help, and at the same time it gave us the new experience being the judge of other people’s works.


    Beside, there were also free pizzas so it was pretty cool.

    Unlike the One Show award show judging I put as illustration above, we sat there inside the CD room, facing a large monitor, brought nothing but our eyes and minds. First thing we have to do was look through all the works based on categories. And say “in” or “out”. “In” if we feel it deserves something, “out” is well.. out. Then we look through all the “in” ones again, to decide if the works deserve finalist, bronze, silver, or even gold. We voted by raising hand to stand our point.

    The process took about 2 hours (thank God it was only 56 entries, compared to 3000 entries my boss judged in the last ADOI award) and it was tiring. Until then, I had always seen award shows from the glamourous side, and envy those judges who sat there in their own special chairs, had done the judging session inside the most expensive hotels with cool swimming pools and booze and expensive sun glasses but anyway… One thing I realized now, being a judge is TOUGH.

    It’s tough to be mean. Seriously, these works are other people’s babies. I can imagine the art directors staying several nights crafting the layout, supervising the photo shoot and digital imaging process by holding on to the words from his/her creative director “this can win something in the next award show”. It’s also has something to do with the good karma, I guess. You will never want your own works to be treated with disrespect.

    It’s tough to be nice. Aside from the ideas or even the crafting, one thing I noticed that how important it is to present your work. A few years ago, our agency got negative comment from some judges in a local award show because we printed our work more decent compare to others. But hey, it’s a beauty show, and beauty queens sure want to look their best when being judged, right? How to present your ideas is another crafting you have to do before entering any award show. It’s simple, if they don’t get your idea, they won’t buy it no matter how good it is.

    It’s tough to fight for your believe. Imagine you’re sitting next to big names like David Droga, or Yasmin Ahmad, and you heard them sigh impatiently and yell “OUT” on the first place, when you’re about to say “IN”. Omg, what to do? I don’t want to look stupid in front of them but how if I really really like the piece? Worst, how if it was MY piece and I believe in it and I have to influence them to vote for it? In this case, it matters to have ego to boost your confidence so you can stand on what you believe. Of course it’s easier said than done. Because I don’t think I am capable yet to do any of that.

    It’s tough to be fair when you’re tired. First round when your eyes and minds were still fresh, it was okay. Some judges are known as the good police, when they gives a lot of opportunities in the beginning. But even the nicest judges get tired, and when they’re tired, they can be very mean. Now I understand why Khai said award shows are pretty much like lottery games. But only if your works really really good, then it will raise to the top like the creamy bubble on top of the beer.

    So before the the glamourous award night and getting wasted in the after parties, it is tough to be judges. I raise my glass to all the good award shows judges out there. You simply deserve the luxurious hotels and all that.

    When I had the one time opportunity to go to Pattaya and see AdFest several years ago, my former group head thought me this little geeky game which was pretty fun. We had two days to see all the work entries being displayed in the largest labyrinth walls I’ve ever seen. It was hundreds of print and outdoor works. All the tv works were being played in a small cinema next to the huge labyrinth. I spent the whole two days checking out all the print and outdoor entries and putting my own votes in my own little note book, pretending I was one of the judges. The day of the winner announcement, I cross checked my vote with the results. Of course, I missed a lot, but still… it was fun.

  • chibialfa 4:48 pm on October 15, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , choking, elephant, print ad   

    Kayaking Ad “Choking” gets Best Print at bestadsontv 

    click for larger image

    “After the ‘what the…’ response, it became clear that the same peanut, is now in a larger size. How often do we get to see elephants giving the Heimlich?”

    -Paul Brourman (judges from bestadsontv)

    The Kayaking ad “Coking Elephant” didn’t get anything at the last AdFest, Media Spike, and Cannes. So getting elected as Best Print of The Week in bestadsontv gives a glimpse of light at the end of the tunnel. There’s still ADOI and Citra Pariwara for the last hope. All I can do now is crossing fingers.

    Fully aware that the spotlight will be gone in a few more days, I saved the screen shot (above), and another screen shot showing Paul’s quote.

    This one is for you, my dear elephants

  • chibialfa 5:01 pm on October 14, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: 10things, about, , animals, , bonfire, , cancer, darth vader, , , geek, lies, , , love, me, meme, , penis, stroyteller, tipi, vain, wedding, workaholic,   

    10 Things about Me 

    I am might be lying, but I am doing this to make you like me.

    alfa & aldo human figures

    alfa & aldo human figures

    I’ve been tagged by Fajar Jasmin to list down 10 Things About Me, part of his wife’s project. Wasn’t an easy task. So here they are…

    1. I love animals. If I caught you hurting dogs or cats or any living animals I will hunt you down no matter how big you are. No, I am not a vegan. Maybe someday I will.
    2. I look like my husband. We’ve been happily married since May 2006. I had tipi tent, lampions, bon fire and Darth Vader in my very-cheap-but-amusing wedding night.
    3. I am vain, and have OCD tendencies.
    4. I am a storyteller. I inherited it from Dad, a brave man who is fighting cancer.
    5. I am an advertising geek. Art Base. I quitted after 7 years. I was burnt out, I thought I lost my love to advertising. I didn’t know what I want then, and went depressed and bored. I am back in ogilvy now, as freelancer. I am still figuring out what to do next. But I know, deep inside, I always love advertising.
    6. I am always curious and easily amused. That’s why I love collecting junks.
    7. I had seen penis when I was 10 years old. My Dad is a doctor, and whenever he performed circumcised surgery he let me watch (maybe because he wanted me to become a doctor)
    8. I learn from books and movies more than I learn from life. No, I am not proud of it.
    9. People say I am a workaholic. Like my mom, I am just easily addicted to stuff I love. Work is just one of them.
    10. I am good in telling lies. Beware: I might making up these 10 things to make you like me.

    So now I have to tag other people to do the same, list down 10 Things About Them and pass the task to other people.

    Thalia, my talented cousin who did the art work above as her wedding present to me. A super funky mom that lives a life like no other.

    Brandon. Twitterville knows him as javajive. Photography is his passion and he has lots of good stuff in his flickr. It’s a good way to find out more about him beside his capability in taking beautiful pictures. Updated: Branded posted his 10 things first thing in the morning. Some of his list made me shiver. Nevertheless, great post!

    Vira si IkanSapi. My good friend since art school who shares similar passion in movies, traveling, and micro blogging.

    Yasmina. A very fun and lucky gal who lives in Milan with her ‘handsome and talented husband’ (she tweets about it a lot when she misses him). Yasmina knows how to take picture of food that will make your mouth watering.

    Daniel Hunt. My dear fellow blogger who lives in Aceh and has been keeping me amused with his wit writings. I somehow assume he would like this task. Updated : Daniel posted his 10 things in the afternoon, funny as always, and he found it difficult to stop at 10 😛

    Aldo. Hubby, this is a kick start idea so you will update your blog! *wink wink*

    And if I don’t tag you, I still encourage you to do the same. Please leave me comment so I can check out your post.

    • anthusiast 5:55 pm on October 14, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      In case you’re wondering, this is Fajar 🙂

      I admire your bravery, especially in point 7 and 10… Way to go, girl ! 🙂

    • chibialfa 6:03 pm on October 14, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Thank, Fa XD fyi: point no 7 is not a lie 😀

    • thalia 3:16 am on October 15, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      ha! thanks for tagging! i’ll try to get it done asap, although honestly, it’d be tough to come up with 10 interesting things that i haven’t mentioned on the site… 😛

    • Leonnie FM 4:50 am on October 15, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      good post!!
      Will list your post in my update.

    • chibialfa 6:44 am on October 15, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @thalia I’m looking forward to it 😉 Maybe beside finding out what you haven’t mentioned, you can you it to sum up you whole blog?

    • chibialfa 6:44 am on October 15, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @leonni And now I’m addicted to follow your updates. Knowing about other people is fun 😀

    • Yasmina 2:28 pm on October 16, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      OK, I got your tag and I’ll revive my blog 😉 BTW, gue udah beberapa bulan ngga tinggal di Milan – gue pindah ke Jerman… nah loh, bingung kan gue keseringan pindah 🙂

    • chibialfa 7:36 pm on October 16, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @yasmina yay! I almost thought you didn’t get any of my calls 😉 ASatga…udah di Jerman lagi? Robert juga kan? See? It’s about time you REVIVE your blog…hehehe… I am waiting in anticipation!

    • Yasmina 3:06 pm on October 17, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Wah! Suami gue masih tinggal di Milan. Dia pindah akhir November ke Jerman. Makanya 3 bulan ini kita long-distance marriage deh, antara NL-DE-IT. Tapi sekarang dia emang lagi disini, selama 12 hari 🙂

    • ikansapi 12:45 am on October 29, 2008 Permalink | Reply

  • chibialfa 8:38 pm on October 8, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: drawing, foodcourt, , henshin, howto, hug, , , lovable, perishwheel, pin, rollei,   

    How to spot twitter users in a food court 

    Twitteratis living in twitterville is a different species than blogger;

    • As talkative little birds, they chipper (tweeet….tweeet…) instead of talk.
    • They are very effective in saying things, usually less than 140 characters.
    • They use http://tinyurl.com when the story gets deeper and longer.
    • They have short attention span, in a nice positive way.
    • Refer to point above, they love helping each other. Ask them a question and the answer will come less than a minute.
    • “We’re DM-ing” means “it’s our secret”
    • When talking to you, they usually say “at” (@) before “your name”.
    • They love hugging to cheer you up when your down, say “YAY!” when happy and look like this XD when being excited
    • They seldom update their blogs, but tweets within minutes in their daily life
    • They kind, fun, lovable, and don’t use rude language
    • Unless they really have to

    It was my third time going to a Tweet Up (Twitter Meet Up). Lots of new faces. Real faces, not merely tiny user pics with less than 140 characters tweets. Honestly I was nervous, but it was unnecessary. I was ecstatic to finally shake hand with my Kemoceng War partner, @kapkap, who then gave me the pin which was made by @rampok and @puspa, based on the logo @kapkap designed.

    Glad to finally see @aulia and @savitri again after our last tweet up like forever ago.

    I am terrible in remembering people’s name, so I made this on spot, the sitting arrangement to make sure I got their name correctly.

    @anima @rampok @patvandiest

    @aulia @savitri @dalih @asil @nanashambles

    @chibialfa @kapkap @puspa

    @kapkap also showed me the original art work of twitteratis member she did long time ago. It’s still in beta, but hopefully it will never finish by the fast growing of the member.

    *Update [@kapkap’s writing about her 1st impressions vs reality towards all twitteratis member]

    Beside recording the Henshin slow-mo, riding the ferris wheel was the highlight of the night.

    I went in total analogue and left my digital camera home. It was amusing to see how easily most of them amused to see the 35 mm rollei. @aulia didn’t, tho…

    @aulia : “Don’t they have this thing called digital camera these days?”

    @chibialfa : didn’t know how to explain why film is not dead yet in less than 140 characters 😛

    Update: Yay! The results from my rollei finally came up. Added in the tweet up set and rollei set. I accidentally pulled the film too hard that the film was ripped inside. But Aldo fixed it, and nothing wrong with the result (phew). Uh wait, everything was wrong with the result; under exposed, over grain, weird colors. But isn’t it the spirit of lomography? (or so they say) 😀 😀

    this one is my favorite

    this one is my favorite

    Of course it bothered me a little since I can’t upload anything while @patvandiest already make an album in facebook and @anima uploaded the hilarious henshin video. I can’t wait to see more photos from @asil’s camera tomorrow. (Update: add new photos from @aulia and @asil facebook)

    Nevertheless… it was a fun and romantic night. Looking forward for the next one.


    Aldo : “Was it fun?”

    @chibialfa : “Yup! Like meeting others that are like me…”

    Aldo : “In the 80s, you would have been crazy about nge-break thing, and tweet up would be like…”

    @chibialfa : “KOPI DARAT :P”

    • Patrick 9:02 am on October 9, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      …and the faeries wheel video! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdsVNJa6OkI


    • wicak 12:08 pm on October 9, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      love the rollei. such a cute little camera. wish i had one! cheers!

    • Nindya 4:38 am on October 10, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Tweet tweet~ 😀 Bee-ruuub-bwahahahahahaah! XD

    • Aulia 2:17 am on October 11, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      I think you meant ecstatic not aesthetic 😉

      hey @patvandiest, it’s Ferris wheel 😀

    • chibialfa 6:13 pm on October 14, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Thanks for the video, Pat! 😀

    • chibialfa 6:14 pm on October 14, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Thanks, wicak 🙂 salam kenal and cheers…

    • chibialfa 6:14 pm on October 14, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @kapkap I still can’t figure out what are you singing?!!!

    • chibialfa 6:15 pm on October 14, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      @aulia yayaya dah dibetulin tu Pak

    • Nindya 8:10 am on October 21, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Sebenernya itu cuman ngomong “berubah” aja. Tapi keburu ngakak…

    • Patrick 10:39 am on October 28, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      no no! it was meant to be wrote as “Faeris Wheel”! pun strongly intended! 😀

  • chibialfa 11:46 am on October 5, 2008 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , retouching, tips   

    Chasing flares 


    Catching Flares 05

    Catching Flares 05


    It was almost 5 pm on the second day of Lebaran, and we were laying lazily in his front yard. The sun was almost set but it left trails of golden flares everywhere. I was too lazy to get up and get my camera, fortunately he wasn’t. I learned new word that day, it was “rim light”.

    These were taken by our Canon 400D. I tweaked the colors using match colors and took the source from other photograph (I learned it from here). It was quiet predictable, pinkish yellowish dreamy mood, but I think it suits best.

    The moment didn’t stay very long. As soon as the sun disappeared behind the clouds, we had to say good bye to the magical lighting.


    chasing flares 02

    chasing flares 02

    More photos in my flickr set “chasing flares

    • Lisa 12:34 pm on October 5, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      huaaa cool!!!

    • chibialfa 1:15 pm on October 5, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      thanks, miss Lisa 🙂

    • ikansapi 9:57 pm on October 6, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      foto2nya baguuussssshhhh… apakah hasil lomo juga…? 🙂

    • chibialfa 10:28 pm on October 6, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      Makasih Vir 😛 enggak, yang ini pake digital xlr, Canon 400D. Lightingnya emang lagi asoy, trus warnanya dimaening lagi sih hehehe (curaaang…curaaaang)

    • ikansapi 12:44 am on October 8, 2008 Permalink | Reply

      gapapa fa.. curang itu yg kita pelajari selama kuliah kan.. hahahaha.. (apalagi selama kerja… )


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